Poetry and Illustrations
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The pier was a place
to play
to make plans
to hold hands
to jump off.
It was a place
to spend a day
knitting time
into Jersey sweaters
to be worn
on winter days
when knees are weak
and hair is gray.
It was a place
where life stuck out is penis
in the mother sea
groping in eternity.
The day it burned
crowds watched from the beach
while homeless men
looked for land
huddled by cans
searching for anything warm.
They had lost their Jersey Sweaters
to be worn
on winter days
when knees are weak
and hair is gray.
The horizon is holding up the sun
shining as a floating torch upon the sea.
The moon is rising in the east
pale as a see-through disc
above the cliffs.
Time is now both night and day
black and white exchange to gray
as the tides move uncertainly between
a premature birth
and a lingering end
and the moment s p r e a d s into infinity
upon the pastel sands.
I.
You
entered my life
this time
saying
you would give me
no space.
I smiled.
No one could possess
someone
who had grown
so free.
But like the sun
you filled
sheltered
places of my heart
with a light
that consumed me.
II.
When you left
this time
I was trapped forever
inside a void
caught between
what never was
and what used to be
searching for traces
of you
of me
finding only ghosts.
Too haunted by
echoes of love
I walked
as a shadow
out into the day
and stood
as a silhouette
through the night
waiting for life
to hear me.
Then morning
brought faint sounds of rage
that rose as the sun
and grew
with the day
and pierced those
places in my heart
those spaces that you left me.
III.
Now
is a gentler day –
the ghosts are gone
though spirits remain
and rage has turned
into a quiet anger.
Now
is a gentler day –
and in moments of grace
I see
your face
and know my rage
was not with you.
It was born
in the void –
that space you said
you wouldn’t give
you left in me.
Driving through the city’s spackled streets
sun dying in the west
smog sinking in the east
radio set to news and static
lost in a labyrinth of passages to anywhere
filled with impersonations of sensations
that take edges off of squares
and roll my life into a ball
bouncing to the rhythm of motor cars, movies stars,
foreign wars, sex affairs of senators
the somnolence that numbs my senses
and sets my spirit to sleep.
I look into a pool
and the clouded form I see
is only me mirrored
then distorted by the morning breeze.
It could be no more than that;
no past or future schemes
are shaped within
this puppet image
lying in the water
prompted more by the noon flurry
than me.
And evening gusts shall own
what was once
my reflection.
It could be no more
than that –
no silent pool
echoing
in virginous clarity
the truth
without the wind.
Outside the office
across the street
boys riding imported racing bicycles
with twenty gears
shiny tires licking the sidewalk
passing up old women walking
wearing
pastel low neck silks
boldly showing wrinkled skin
the tires spin
the boys laugh
the women walk
and walk
and talk
about disgrace and how fast time goes by
though each moment seems an hour
and how the sun has gotten hotter
and how the boys
and the bikes are signs of
things to come.
To be real.
Not to catch a star
but to be only
what you are.
No God
or Purple Phantom
can show you
until you know you –
the way you feel
without even a fly
in the room.
I used to believe
in a Galaxy
until it devoured me;
now I believe in
Something
that takes me from
the Nothing.
It is not a thought
it is without reason
and is as natural
as the seasons
flowing
one into the other.
It is a whisper
my baby’s breath
upon me –
the Child within
giving birth
to its
Mother.